Friday, January 16, 2009

Home Sweet Home

Today is Robbie’s second "heavenly anniversary." It has been 2 years since I held him, kissed his plump cheeks, stared into his big eyes, or heard him say Mama. In his short 19 ½ months on this earth, I did not spend one night away from him. We were inseparable and he was my little buddy. I miss him very very much. I miss getting the chance to see him grow up, learn new things, and seeing how different our family would be with him still here.

The first year, I truly dreaded this day. It was an anniversary of nothing good. It only marked a day that was filled with shock, pain and intense grief. But our friends, the Gilliams, who are going through a very similar situation, told us that they referred to this day as their son’s heavenly anniversary. Now there is a bright thought! If my eyes could have only seen what Robbie saw that day, I couldn’t help but celebrate this day.

I cannot believe it has been two years. And, I cannot believe that we are still surviving. Many people say, "I could not do that," or "I don’t know how you do it." I concur! It is only a testament to the awesome power of the Lord and the beauty of His promises.

I have not discussed the "details" of Robbie’s homegoing on this blog as they are too personal, and truthfully, are too difficult to talk about. So we try to focus on the things that are unseen - which, as I’ve mentioned before, are too great for me to even imagine.

This sums is up:

For we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair, persecuted but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. Because we know that He who raised the Lord Jesus will raise us also with Jesus and bring us into His presence. So we do not lose heart. For this slight and momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are temporary, but the things that are unseen are eternal.

II Corinthians 4:7-9,14, 16-18

I don’t believe I could say it much better than my husband did at Robbie’s memorial service. If you care to read that, click here.


Anonymous said...

Beautiful and so wise, Lauren! We love you and are thinking of you and Bob today.

Jenna :)

Jennifer said...

Beautifully said. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers today.

Godfreyhouse said...

I have prayed for you and your family this week. You're a dear and precious family. God bless you.

Ryan and Marty said...

Been prayin' for you today.


3 Peanuts said...

I am thinking of you and raying for you on this heavenly anniversary. Sending love and hugs from TX.


Canadian Girl said...

The girls from Canada have their arms around you. God Bless.

Young Creations said...

I am thinking of you today. I am sure Robbie is smiling down with kisses and hugs. God bless you.

Clare said...

I have been thinking of you this week Lauren, I hope you are doing ok. such a beautiful post, thank you for sharing it with all of us. i loved your new years card, by the way!! you have three beautiful children:)

Stephanie said...

Hey Lauren, I hope you are doing well...I have said this before and I truly mean it when I say I admire your faith and strength. May God bless you and your family in 2009. I am praying for you...take care:)

Kevin said...

We have thought of you often this week. Kevin and I still to this day talk about Bob and God's Amazing Grace! We love you guys!