Home Sweet Home

Today is Robbie’s second "heavenly anniversary." It has been 2 years since I held him, kissed his plump cheeks, stared into his big eyes, or heard him say Mama. In his short 19 ½ months on this earth, I did not spend one night away from him. We were inseparable and he was my little buddy. I miss him very very much. I miss getting the chance to see him grow up, learn new things, and seeing how different our family would be with him still here.

The first year, I truly dreaded this day. It was an anniversary of nothing good. It only marked a day that was filled with shock, pain and intense grief. But our friends, the Gilliams, who are going through a very similar situation, told us that they referred to this day as their son’s heavenly anniversary. Now there is a bright thought! If my eyes could have only seen what Robbie saw that day, I couldn’t help but celebrate this day.

I cannot believe it has been two years. And, I cannot believe that we are still surviving. Many people say, "I could not do that," or "I don’t know how you do it." I concur! It is only a testament to the awesome power of the Lord and the beauty of His promises.

I have not discussed the "details" of Robbie’s homegoing on this blog as they are too personal, and truthfully, are too difficult to talk about. So we try to focus on the things that are unseen - which, as I’ve mentioned before, are too great for me to even imagine.

This sums is up:

For we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair, persecuted but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. Because we know that He who raised the Lord Jesus will raise us also with Jesus and bring us into His presence. So we do not lose heart. For this slight and momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are temporary, but the things that are unseen are eternal.

II Corinthians 4:7-9,14, 16-18

I don’t believe I could say it much better than my husband did at Robbie’s memorial service. If you care to read that, click here.