Saturday, June 28, 2008

I Can Only Imagine

I'm sure we've all heard this song by now. It's beautiful. It causes you to stop and think of the reality of standing face to face to our Lord and to wonder what it will be like.

For me, one of the hard things after Robbie went to heaven was just that. Imagining. I wanted to imagine him and his daily activities. When I closed my eyes, I wanted to be able to see him in my mind. But I couldn't do it. I could not even imagine. I had no idea what he was doing. Truthfully, I had peace that he was safe and free and with the Lord. But I couldn't imagine anything further.

Was he playing with other children? Was he sitting on Jesus' knee? Was he picking fruit off the trees? Was he quoting his ABCs to my grandfather? Was he busy? Did he have work to do? Is he a player in this whole spiritual world that we live in -- helping the angels accomplish a mission? I do not know.

So, once again, this is where trust comes in. I trust the Lord. I trust His character, and I trust His promises. I do not know what all of that includes. The Bible does not give us all the details. But I do know that it is good.

John 14:1-3 "Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in me. In my Father’s house are many rooms. If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you to myself, that where I am you may be also."

As I was wrestling with this issue one day, I began to understand that if I could truly imagine it -- if I could picture in my earthly mind what heaven and my Robbie's new life there entailed -- it really would not be heaven, would it? Our earthly minds and senses are limited. We cannot even begin to understand or comprehend the heavenly things.

I Cor. 2:9 "Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, the things which God has prepared for them who love Him."

So what does that mean? It means I have to be patient. Arghh!!! I will one day see with my own eyes and hear with my own ears those wonderful things that God has prepared for His children. Robbie just got a head start.


Anonymous said...

Lauren, what a beautiful entry! I LOVE the picture of Robbie in his rain boots. :) Love ya, Jenna

Emily Makes Six said...

Lauren, Your Robbie is absolutely precious. My heart has been touched deeply by your writing. I too lost my 3 1/2 year old son Connor 4 1/2 years ago. The heart aches and the longing to see their sweet faces never ends but the Lord holds us close confirming in our hearts that HE will bring us together again and what a day of rejoicing that will be. Thank you for sharing your heart. It truly touched mine. With love, Nichole

Clare said...

Lauren, The picture of Robbie with the boots on is sooo cute! He was is beautiful! Thank you for sharing such beautiful thoughts. With love, Clare

Kimber said...

Your faith is so amazing to me Lauren. I am always learning from you.



wow, Lauren your faith, strength, and heart amaze me ... You are one special lady created by the Father ... I have been picturing Robbie w/ sweet Maria ... That is a clear a picture as I can get, but i know there is much more amazing things in heaven than I can even imagine ...

thanks for sharing your heart !!