Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Time to Prepare . . . Again

The day is rapidly approaching. So, it is time to prepare . . . again.

In 2005, we welcomed little Robbie into this world and became a family. We began the crazy journey of learning how to be parents and watching a little person totally depend on us for everything.

We saw him take his first bite of food, take his first step, learn his first word.

Then we began to prepare Robbie to be a big brother and to prepare ourselves to juggle two children.

Robbie's shirt says "Big Brother"

Our journey with Robbie lasted a mere 19 1/2 months and then came to an abrupt stop. Robbie went to his forever Home, and we were left here to pick up the many pieces.

We lived alone in the loud quietness of our house for three months and then we welcomed Eveley Joy into this world and our home in April 2007. And the journey began again.

To all disinterested observers, we were new parents experiencing all of Eveley's milestones for the first time. But, to us, we were reliving the past over again with a different child. I know that sounds odd, but it's really hard to explain. I sang Eveley the same songs, read her the same books, played with the same toys, and taught her the same animal sounds as I just had taught her brother a few months earlier.

We saw Eveley go through all of the same "firsts" - her first food, first steps, and first words. And then we began again to prepare her to be a big sister and to prepare ourselves to juggle two children.

Besides the normal hormones that attend pregnancy and childbirth, I know I will be flooded with emotions and memories of my little Robbie as I bring this little boy home. So, I am preparing our home to handle two children, and I am preparing my heart to handle three. And we will begin the journey again.


Anonymous said...

Beautiful, Lauren. We love you and can't wait to meet the new little man in your life.

Love, Jenna

Anonymous said...

I don't know you but your blog is inspiring and from reading I feel I do know you. You will be ok. You are a great mother and I can't wait to meet your new edition to a wonderful family. God is good and you will be ok.

Clare said...

love your post lauren, beautiful. robbie will be smiling down when you bring this little boy home. love, clare

Maggie said...

My prayers are with you during this time. I've been down your road, or one like it, and it's such a strange combination of joy and sorrow all together. God bless you all.

Anonymous said...

Well, I shed a few tears after reading this one. Yes, your heart will ALWAYS carry ALL of the children God has given you. Although you'll be 30 yrs old on Thanksgiving Day, you are still my 30 yr. old baby, and you're still in my heart. I love you, my firstborn.

Christy said...

Hi Lauren,

Joanna sent me the link to your blog and oh I can relate far too well. My oldest daughter died from AML leukemia. Eight days after she went home to our Lord, we found out she was going to be a big sister, and 8 months later, we welcomed Jacob into our family. It's a struggle at times to know he's living the role as the oldest child, when in reality he's our
2nd child.

It's been 8 1/2 yrs since Jordyn went home, and we will always miss her. God has blessed us though, from Jordyn to Jacob, to Jackson and most recently 15 months ago with Emma Grace. Having another daughter has brought back a great deal of memories of Jordyn that the boys didn't in some ways.

God Bless

CMG's Mom said...

Keeping you close in my prayers Lauren.

Anonymous said...

I love you L! Big hugs from all of us down here.

Stephanie said...

Lauren, I admire you for your strength and love for the lord...you are amazing! I can't wait to meet the little guy. Wish I was there to help out:) I will keep you and your family in my prayers...keep that beautiful smile on your face:))) Take care!


Oatsvall Team said...

your strength always encourages me and your faith pushes me to look deeper into each person's heart and your honesty is refreshing to my soul ... love ya !!

3 Peanuts said...


I know this is going to be bittersweet in some ways...I am praying for you:)