Sunday, January 16, 2011

4 Years Home

Today is our beautiful Robbie's 4th Heavenly Anniversary. I cannot believe it has been 4 years since he was in our arms. And it is difficult, almost impossible, to find any words to express the depths of our feelings.

I have written about the Respite Retreat that Bob and I attended awhile back. This was a weekend gathering of couples who had lost children, hosted by David and Nancy Guthrie.


There, we met Greg and Nicol Sponberg whose little boy had gone to heaven very suddenly. Nicol was a former member of the Christian music group Selah and had begun a solo career. The last night of the retreat, Nicol shared a song she had recently recorded after the homegoing of her son Luke. I thought the words of the song were perfect. They helped me picture the true awesomeness of our son's new Home and expressed our gratitude for the time we had with him and the gift he left us behind -- the ache for Home.

The song has now been released, so I can share it with you all. It is a perfect way to sum up my aching heart 4 years later.




What is it like to be held in the same arms that hold the universe?
What is it like to sleep on the chest of the King of heaven and earth?
When you open your eyes and look on the face of the Giver of life, the Author of grace, do you know?

That your days here changed everything
You're missed here and will always be
But you left here the greatest gift of all
Cause our hearts ache for Home

What is it like to breathe in and breathe out heaven's glorious light
What is it like to be robed in perfection, no reason to cry?
When you feel on your face, your Father's kiss, his welcomed embrace, we prayed for this, you should know

That your days here changed everything
You're missed here and will always be
But you left here the greatest gift of all
Cause our hearts ache for Home

Twinkle twinkle little star
We will keep you in our hearts
Twinkle twinkle little star
We will meet you where you are

Your days here changed everything
You're missed here and will always be
But you left here the greatest gift of all
Cause our hearts ache for Home


This song, and the rest of Nicol's new album, is available on iTunes.

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11 comments:

Anonymous said...

I woke up at 12:30 this morning, knowing that this was 4 years out. I willed myself to go back to sleep. I knew you would have something beautiful posted, and you didn't disappoint me. The words to Nichole's song are not only beautiful, but inspired of God and could have only come from the heart of one who knows. Absolutely beautiful. As I looked at the pictures, so many memories, and listened to the words of the song, tears poured hot and fast, but my heart soared with the TRUTH that has set us free, and I love Him more in this moment. "Thank you, God, for sending YOUR Son, so that we could come to You one day soon and see OUR son again. I worship You, Lord Jesus." I love you, Lauren and Bob. Mom

Christine said...

Lauren,
You and Bob will be in my thoughts and prayers today. I'm sorry for your loss 4 years ago. I wish I could have met Robbie. He is beautiful!
Thank you for sharing hope.

Tina Michelle said...

*hugs*

Tina Michelle said...

Beautiful song. I shared it with another blogger who I know is hurting over her loss. Thanks for sharing the song and pictures.

Kristen said...

Lauren...this is beautiful! We have been and will continue to pray for your sweet family! We love y'all bunches!

Jennifer said...

Thinking of you today, sweet friend. A beautiful post for a beautiful boy.

eeguiltner said...

Thinking of you and praying for the peace and comfort of God's presence.
~Erin

aprildtaylor said...

Thinking of you all! Tough wk end for our family as well as my mom left us for "home" 8 yrs ago yesterday! And your mom being there that day meant so much to us! Praying for you!

Allie Carpenter said...

I am praying for you today! Thank you for sharing such a beautiful post! You are an amazing mother! Sending you lots of hugs today! Love you!

Ani said...

no words, just prayers and hugs to you all.

Jennifer said...

Thank you so much for sharing this. I've only known you a short while and the tears just poured for you and your family as I watched the beautiful pictures of your beautiful Robbie. We will keep you in our prayers.